three zero

i turn 30 in seven days. not terribly excited by that idea.

normally i like February because i get to celebrate my birthday at the end of the month. i just don’t really look forward to celebrating my entrance into the 30 somethings and having to leave my 20’s behind. does 30 also mean I have to start behaving like an adult? hmm…

i will say that this month has been slightly better than last. Although i am still dealing with a variety of frustrations, either I am getting used to them and they don’t bother me so much or for the time being they have reduced their aggravating effects.

Mary and my son came back home at the beginning of last week. That helped my attitude improve slightly. Also, I have actually been talking to a couple of places about possible employment opportunities. None of them have materialized yet, but just the fact of talking to some people has helped my ego and current outlook tremendously.

so at least I know there is some hope.

yesterday wasn’t a good day. A relative of Mary’s passed away and it was very unexpected and left everyone with a lot of questions as to how it happened. She was in the hospital for the last few days and seemed to being very well. Yesterday morning she was even talking and sitting up in bed and wondering when they were going to let her go home. Then in the afternoon something went wrong and within an hour she was gone. Not a good day at all.