bi polar

sometimes i wonder if i am manic or bi polar.

yesterday i was in a great mood and it pushed through the whole day.  all the worries, frustrations and problems that I face were of no concern.  I felt content, felt happy and knew that somehow, someway things would find their way right side up.

today i woke up and told myself it was going to be a good day.  told myself but really didn’t believe it.  i told myself I was going to stay in a good mood and be happy.  I am really trying.  It isn’t working very well.

I think I am just tired. Tired of doing things that don’t really work.  Tired of Juba.  Tired of this F@#$ing beer.

only if it was still yesterday.  I love having days like that.